The Pearly Gates of Hell {Poem}

I had seen a glimpse of Heaven back then
Or so it seemed
I could have sworn it was a real-life manifestation of what once was my dreams
As the edges of your mouth curled and lifted so did my soul along with it
A single embrace as your arms wrapped around me felt as though I had been wrapped in a gift from the Universe itself
Your laughter the song that cascaded over my body and soul in a pristine waterfall that smoothed out my edges
It felt as if the war that raged within had finally been calmed
There was peace in all the land between all the factions within my mind
Every thought a relief as they all clanked a beer in cheers
Not yet knowing I was only in the eye of the storm
As the light had not quite reached the furthest and darkest corners
The pearly gates I had entered had quickly become worn
The paint masquerading as pearls had begun revealing itself as bones as it chipped away
What had once been magnificent laughter and song became screams and cries of the souls of the damned and forgotten
The beautiful gardens that could only have been Eden had turned to ash and graves
Cerulean seas turned to scarlet rivers of blood
What I thought had finally become my liberation became the slave master
My own thoughts the shackles and whips
What had been my good night and sweet dreams became my good fright and sweet screams
My endless nightmare
The clanking beers and cheers became clanking swords and war cries
What once was the pristine waterfall that cascaded over my soul became the rivers that adorned my cheeks as they descended from the windows of my aching soul only to drown me
Instead of the ship that sailed me to my own little slice of paradise became the stone and chain to pull me down under back into the abyss from where I started
The arms that wrapped me in a gift soon wrapped around my neck in an offering to the king of Hell
My soul to be the next one screaming
The newest addition to the ever-growing collection to the cage
Perhaps too foolish to see the bones that the pearls paraded as
I only saw what I wanted to see and that ultimately became the prison within me
The gold throne on which I thought I sat was only skin and bone.


Breathe Me To Life {Poem}

I’m faded in ways

Cue the shame

And no, drugs are not to blame

Caught up in a daze

My soul ripped from me leaving me empty

Nothing left but a void that’s screaming

But no one can hear in a vacuum

Is it too late for a wasteland to heal?

Searching for a former glory that never was

Now all that’s left is the next hit for a temporary buzz

Now back again at square one

What to do when everything is so wrong?

Trapped in a cycle in which I will never belong

What is the meaning in a world without soul?

Perhaps it’s in the same place where mine may be

Where love is weak and fear is stronger

Sometimes I wonder why I even bother

Perhaps I’m dead

Trapped in the limbo inbetween

Peering in on all the beautiful things I cannot reach

A place of stunning souls

There I could see yours shining brightest

I may not be able to reach, but I am not yet blind

My sight reaching farther than where I’m confined

With an inhale I may tremble

An exhale I may fall weak

My legs unable to carry

Yet my arms will pull me to you

I’ll give you my labored breaths

Perhaps they will give you what they never could give me

For in you I find my soul again

Every word and every touch pulling me back together

Even at the seams once weathered

Thinking my tears left me drained when they filled an abundant ocean instead

Thinking I crashed the seas alone when you were the wind that carried through my sails

With every caress traced a road map of every part of you I conquered

Every whispered word a verse of a song while I could not hear the music

Perhaps not all things must come to an end

For our embrace shall be imprinted into eternity

Perhaps not all stolen is lost

You showed me the way back home as you dragged us along

In the emptiness and cold lies a flame that will one day expand

Reaching the end of a chapter we found the rest of the story.

Exploring the Meaning of Life

The meaning of life has been debated for centuries since our brains could deliberate such concepts. Why are we here? What is right and wrong? What are we supposed to do? What’s the point? Why the hell am I here? What about my dog?

Some would say it is solely to have a good time, to have sex and make money, find your dream career, to get married and raise a family, pay taxes and slave away at a job until you die, et cetera. Everyone has some kind of idea in their head, but nobody really seems to know for sure (they will say they know for sure, but don’t listen to anyone who thinks they have guarantees because those who guarantee know the least).

Some think that there is a reason grander than us, while others believe we are nothing but a jumble of atoms and stardust that got “lucky” enough to randomly come together to evolve and create our destructive species for no reason at all. Just soulless beings here for no reason to just die and cease to exist.

There are a few questions that come to mind when we consider both points—on the one hand you have the belief that it is all random. Everything we see and experience around us is nothing more than a lucky spark of life and evolution that exploded into existence. Everything from the way humans and animals have developed to the man-made and natural that has come to exist. How can such a complicated and vast Universe be created by random? Under what conditions could this have been made possible on it’s own? How could a world like this just mindlessly and unpurposefully just come to be? Why did it evolve this way and not in a completely different way? Wouldn’t you think it could be far more than just happenstance?

Then we have the possibility of purpose. A purpose first implies that there is something or someone behind it. Who or what could this be? Some would say there is some guy in the sky while others say that it’s more of an energy rather than an entity. An energy all around us and within us. This other energy is without one particular form as it is everything instead that we all come from—God vs Source or “God” energy. But who created that then? Also, if we are referring to God then would there not be a Goddess? A feminine energy to help in baring the world as a man cannot do it alone God or not, I would imagine. Who then created the creator who created the creator of the creator? This also implies that the world is only a couple thousand years old which definitely is not the case. I don’t believe that there is a vengeful ruler, personally, but I am not here to judge anyone’s beliefs—just here to learn and speculate.

Now we have Source energy. Some would suggest that there is a source energy that has always been and always will be—that we are all-knowing souls living a human existence, and we all came from this source. We are all one, and we are each a piece of this source broken off that needs to return to the natural state of love that gets corrupted with time from birth. So then why did this “source” create us? How did it come to be? Why did it come to be this way? How does it work? Some say that perhaps we are the Universe getting to know itself—that we came here to learn. At the same time, though, we are supposed to be all-knowing beings, so why would we need to come here to learn if we supposedly already know everything there is to know? Are we not as knowledgeable as we thought? Or are we here for other reasons? Could we possibly be continuously reincarnating souls that come here to learn new things? If we are, then what are we learning?

Perhaps we evolve on a soul level, too, rather than purely evolving on the material level. Perhaps we have lost the way and have to relearn our true ways. We may all have different reasons for coming here—different purposes whether it be inspiring the masses with music or dedicating your life to end world hunger. Perhaps all of those micro purposes come together then for an even greater purpose for the macro that we all share and work towards—a world of unconditional love and peace for all. By all I really do mean all.

We cannot guarantee anything—not even ourselves, but the one thing we can count on is love. There is no other way—nothing else to work for. Love can look like many things. Whether it be a mother’s love for her child, a vocalist pouring passion into his/her music, a painter spreading love across the canvas with each stroke, it all translates into acts of love for yourself and everything within and without the Universe. Love is the reason we do things if we are a normal functioning human being. That’s why I write for this blog after all even if nobody reads it.

With all of the killing, starvation, slavery, hate, et cetera there is a clear need for more love and spiritual evolution. We are evolving too quickly materially, but we are not catching up enough spiritually. All of the suffering ailing humanity can trace back to an overabundance of material advancement in a world where people are not spiritually evolved enough to handle that without using that material “success” to harm another. We don’t need bigger bombs we need bigger hearts. More loving rather than more hating. Once we evolve our souls, hearts, and minds then we may finally overcome humanity’s myriad shortcomings.

So then I would perhaps come to the conclusion that the meaning of life is simply to love unconditionally. Do we really have to have a who or what? Does it really matter all that much here? That part only matters when you reach the end. Perhaps love is all we really need, and all we really need to know. If we needed to know right now then I would imagine we would know. If we come in knowing too much it ruins the movie—the mystery. You don’t learn shit if you come in with the preconceived idea that you already know everything. Just do all things with love and compassion for the macro and you will begin to find your way to your personal micro.

Infernal Kiss {Poem}

Words so sickly sweet on my lips as my cravings pull me in

Not realizing I’ve been poisoned

The taste satisfies for but a moment

Soon I want to claw out my stomach and wrench out my heart

A wildfire chasing the trees

Consuming as it moves from one to the next

Until it reaches you where there is no oxygen for my flame to burn

No more love to feed

The orange mass licks and reaches as it flickers and fades

The hot kisses only singeing your skin

The one thing keeping it going pouring water on it

He thought water was what I needed

A thirst that needed to be quenched

He thought I was the trees, but I was the flame burning them

He the kryptonite to my being

Snuffing me out

Until there is nothing left but my aching soul

Nothing more than a heartbeat slowly dissipating

My ecstasy became my demise

For our love was like fire and water

The light in my eyes steamed away as we got closer

Evaporating with you into the skies

What ascended you

Descended me.

Sevanna Simonette

The System and the End Times

So many people feel like there is something off these days, but let’s be real. There has never been a time where anything has been “right”. Whether it be that the government is slowly eroding our rights and freedoms, the racist who feel oppressed because they are being condemned for their bigotry and don’t understand why, that people still go hungry even though tons of perfectly good food is being thrown away, that Daddy didn’t purchase an entitled son a Rolex, that human trafficking is still a problem, that people still have to fight for education and basic human rights, et cetera. No matter who you talk to everybody can at least agree that something is wrong (unless you’re an elite) even if they cannot agree on what exactly it is that is wrong.

A lot of the things that people focus on are nothing more than perfectly placed distractions to keep us occupied from what is really going on behind closed doors. It all starts with the way “The System” was built. Many people believe that the foundations that this current system was built on is now falling apart not realizing that it was built flawed in the first place. This system that all of the older generations fought for (and still do) was built to enslave the public while also making them believe that the public is free at the same time. There is nothing about this country nor any other place on this Earth that is a “free” place. We are all slaves in some way or form, and some more than others. We must become aware of the chains so that we may break them. We continue to elect the two party system and the silver-tongues who represent them hoping that if we just elect the right person that we will all be saved. Candidates and voting were given to the public to toss a bone to make us feel like we had a voice.

As has been mentioned before by whom I am unsure, there is a reason for the two ruling political factions to be called “the right and left wing”. While they may seem like completely different wings, they are each a wing of the same bird or plane or whichever analogy you prefer. The same plane that is heading for a nose dive straight to the ground with all of us on board. The supporters of each faction arguing with each other as if either of them are correct in their claims. Newsflash, both are wrong. Do not fall for politicians of either side as both of them are spinning a different lie. They all have an agenda. This is not the time to be spitting fire (and I’m not talking about a sweet mixtape) back and forth into each other’s faces.

They want us to be pitted against each other, and by “they” I am referring to the deep state or the ruling class: the people who pull the strings. The more divided we are, the more easily we are to be controlled because we are too focused on being right to notice what is actually going on. You can point the finger at the minority, the single moms on food stamps, the homeless man on the curb, or the person who didn’t vote all you please, but you’re not helping. Nothing gets done when you’re using your fingers to point rather than build. Build a better world, don’t bitch about who you think made it the way it is. If you’re blaming another innocent then you keep the blame from those who really possess it. All civilians are innocent bystanders to the tyranny of the top players in the game. Where we stand they fall. At this rate we are just leading ourselves to our own demise. Look at the world around you. None of this is okay. Every time we vote we are voting to keep the system as is. You can’t use an old system to create a new one. You must take down and remove the old to bring in the new.

There is no perfect person to vote in. Both sides bicker in the public eye, but behind closed doors they’re drinking tea and playing golf together as they laugh about how easy it was for them to swindle us all and get away with it. Instead, people want to blame the younger generations. Interestingly enough I find that the younger generations are the ones talking the most sense and actually trying to change the world while the others complain. Before you scream at others to “find their safe space” you might want to find your own. It is the young people who are bringing back the revolution that never should have died. Just fight with them. Your future is at stake too. While you’re accepting your slavery the young are working to free us all from it. They can’t do it alone.

The rich are not entitled to all of the world’s resources to exploit and monopolize for the highest bidders at hellacious prices. No one should have to sell their soul for a basic human right to all. Food, water, and shelter are not commodities to be sold while the majority go without. One should not have to slave away for the rest of their lives just to have a place to live or have an education. If you own a home, look at the deed. Even though you bought it the deed will say that you are a tenant of your property. They still own it either way. You don’t even own what you own. Even healthcare that is garbage and kills people if they even bother to help at all, and that’s even if you can afford it. Even education is corrupt. Remember, history is written by the victor. History isn’t the only thing skewed. Much of what is taught in any subject in school is false, but they won’t tell you that. They want us in the dark. An educated public is an untamable public. They want uninformed workers who will be okay with giving their all to a corporation for nothing; replaceable slaves. Work ethic is a fancy name for someone who knows how to be a good slave.

Humanity is meant for so much more than this. We all have a purpose here, and I promise you it isn’t to work in a factory for the rest of our lives. We are not meant to keep killing and hurting each other. Causing pain onto each other is so archaic. We can move beyond this. Don’t give in to the slave monetary system. Paper is not worth hurting others or ourselves over. More and more people are waking up to the reality of the world and the Universe day by day. More and more people are feeling anxious and depressed. Open your eyes to the vastness of the Infinite. Realize that there are many things so much bigger than us and our little world and systems of doing things. It’s time to evolve. We don’t need this system. It needs us, and as long as we continue to feed it, it will remain.

The world may seem so bleak and hopeless, but you are not alone in feeling this way. It does not have to be this way. I know it feels like the end is just around the corner, and it is, but not in the way that has been portrayed. We probably won’t die in a fiery explosion nor will aliens try to take over our planet, but the world as we know it must and will come to an end. The end may be near, but there is still time. We can still put a stop to the tyranny. Chaos will ensue to bring about the new. It seems like things are only getting worse, but this is only the beginning. Things are about to get interesting, but in the end the people will be triumphant. It will be replaced by a new world.

Do you really want the world to stay as it is? A better world that benefits all doesn’t have to be a fairytale; a myth. We can make it a reality. A world where famine, illness, and thirst does not exist. Where everyone is granted a place to live. Where there is no monetary system or power structure. We can self-regulate our own lives and take control. We can barter and trade goods and services. There is not nor ever was a need for a monetary system. Where crime and war don’t exist because no one will feel any sort of need for it. Where everyone has access to everything such as knowledge or anything being hidden by the elites; full and complete transparency. Where there is no oppression, hate, nor prejudice. Where everyone has the freedom to pursue anything they love such as art or woodworking or anything that makes the heart sing rather than selling their souls to build up someone else’s empire. We can have a world full of love and peace, but not if we continue to spread hate amongst ourselves and let the elites get away with their crimes against humanity and the world.

We can build this new world that seems only possible in fiction by overthrowing the government, the shadow government, and all who are in any position of power. Protesting not by marches but with our money as that is what they use to control us. We can use it to control them right back. Take your money from the banks and corporations. That is the best way. If we bleed them of our resources then they will die. We can reject the religious indoctrination that promotes hate, control, and division. Choose to love one another rather than hate. You may enjoy the power of hate, but love feels better. Even if you disagree, love ultimately feels better. Hate fuels their power and makes us easier to control, but when we live in peace and harmony there will be no way for them to fight us. We could further choose a day or even longer than that to not spend a dime of our money nor go anywhere so to stop the world. Not even to work. The whole world would stop. Only then will they know their time is up. Reject fossil fuels. Open your arms to renewable and free energy. Some will be worried that rejecting fossil fuels will mean a loss in jobs, but job creation won’t matter when your children don’t have a future because you chose to poison the land and water just to have an unsustainable job in the moment. Don’t let the fuel companies fool you into thinking you need them when in reality they need us far more than we will ever need them. Protesting in this manner may collapse the economy and foundations of our world, but this needs to happen. We cannot change it if we don’t break it first. It is not too late (yet) to make the change, but we don’t have much time.

Above all things the most important thing we all need to remember if we want to change the world for the better is to do unto others as we wish to have done unto ourselves, and to find out how we can be more of service to others rather than finding out how the world can be of service to only ourselves. We can build a world that serves us, but we must do our part to serve the world first. It does not matter what your talents are. What matters is how you use them to serve the highest good. Whether you are a singer giving inspiration or a builder engineering the new world, we all have something to offer. We must take our lives into our own hands now rather than expecting someone else to do the work for us. Stop looking for someone to blindly follow and lead yourself. There is no perfect candidate nor guru who can fix it all for us. We are all human. We are all flawed. No one is going to come save us. Not Hillary. Not Trump. Not Jesus. Not your friend’s dad. Nobody but the collective. Don’t let them distract you with trivial garbage. We are all one.  We are all in this together. We won’t win if we don’t act like and work together as the team we are. We’re all on the same team. Yes, every single one of us. Hope is the drive that keeps us alive, my friends. It’s time to be our own saviors.