Hope in a World Lacking

Everywhere you look you find examples of negative occurrences. People inflicting harm upon one another, people lost and confused, incessant bickering about trivial matters, and on it goes.

The world feeds on this negativity. It sells and gets views. The problem is that the more we see it the more it poisons us, and the more people begin to lose hope. We internalize it and lash out to others. We love to hate others and hate ourselves. We cause harm to others and ourselves. We have lost the way.

Fear and hate have led so many astray that most of us don’t even know ourselves anymore. The demons of the past overthrow our minds and souls and eat away what we could be; eat away what good could come of our present and future.

So many feel helpless to do anything about the state of their own lives much less the state of the world. Hope slowly trickles away as we turn away from our own hearts. I myself have felt helpless in my own life. Feeling stuck and imprisoned in my own miserable existence. I’ve let my life go as many people have. I thought that this is all I was destined to have. I didn’t consider the possibility that maybe I could get up and take charge. I didn’t know what the next step was nor even how to carry out said theoretical step. Guess what? I still have no clue. All I know is I have to try something, anything. That is the only step that I know for sure can be taken. All this time of beating myself up for the failure that I had thought I had become, but I am only doing and can only do my best. I forget that I am still young. Even if I wasn’t young it would not make any difference whatsoever.

We berate ourselves for not having all the right answers right this instant. The self hatred polluting our homes and souls for not being able to be, know, and do everything that we think we should be able to be, know, and do. I can say that that has been my own source of tremendous frustration—-panicked and frantic searching for the perfect answer to make everything the way I think it should be, but I forget that if I had all the answers then I would probably have no reason to be here living this particular existence. I’m not here to know I’m here to learn. We’re not here to know everything and be perfect on the first try otherwise there would be no point to be here. There would be nothing to learn. It’s okay that you don’t know. It really is. That is why you’re here. You are here so that one day you will know what you need to know, but it will be learned by experience. Knowing won’t just come it has to be worked at.

Besides, let’s be real. Nobody learns by being told anything. That’s why people never take advice. That rebellious teen whom you have told time and time again to stop doing whatever they keep doing, or that one friend you have warned that the new guy she is seeing is a dick yet she swears he’s different. You can give people the best advice straight from the heavens, but you can guarantee they either won’t listen, or it will just motivate them to prove you wrong. They just never listen, do they? People usually only tend to learn their lesson when everything all goes downhill to the point where they cannot choose to be blind anymore. They have to fully personally experience something before they can finally learn their lesson from it. People (usually) only believe what they can see and/or can feel—what they can experience in some way with one or more of their senses.

There are no shortcuts, no cheat codes, no bribing God—nothing. We’re all here to move directly through life. We’re here for a specific reason that is tailored specifically for each one of us; something for our own reality—no one else’s. The lesson may come early or late; easier or harder. They don’t come when or because we want them to—they come when we need them to. When we are ready, it will come. I know that is an annoying and frustrating concept to have to accept, but the Universe does not run on our time. Don’t worry if the answers don’t come to you right now. They will come eventually.

Just relax and prepare yourself for what’s to come. Take the time to focus on and take care of the parts of you and your life that need some TLC that you have been neglecting. Don’t compare your journey to another’s journey because their journey is not yours. Theirs was crafted for them and only them. Be okay with where you are at, or if you’re in a tough place do what you have to do to keep your head up. Your best is good enough. Things may look bleak now, but they won’t always be. Your time will come. Maybe not today nor tomorrow, but it will come one day. Please, be patient for yourself.

Cultivate hope like it’s the last thing that will keep you going because it is. Don’t let it fall scarce. Hope is the drive that keeps us alive. Let go of the need to control every outcome. Not knowing is not a bad thing. It is a blessing. Be ready.


Savior {Poem}

Glistening gates

Paradise awaits

Instead of God stands the Fates

A single eye

My answer a wicked gleam with a side of a smile so sly

I begin to fly

Soon I realize I’m falling 

The blinding light fades to crimson as I hear a faint calling 

Soon it becomes clear to be a mocking behind wails and bawling

A small jolt overtakes me as I halt

I see around me many other souls trapped with me inside an infinitely massive vault

A voice echoes within that I am at fault

But, my dear, there is a chance

A figure appears so striking with but a glance

Approaching with such grace as to dance

How could this be?

As the light fades and my eyes can see

The savior was not He

The key to my salvation was me.

Infernal Kiss {Poem}

Words so sickly sweet on my lips as my cravings pull me in

Not realizing I’ve been poisoned

The taste satisfies for but a moment

Soon I want to claw out my stomach and wrench out my heart

A wildfire chasing the trees

Consuming as it moves from one to the next

Until it reaches you where there is no oxygen for my flame to burn

No more love to feed

The orange mass licks and reaches as it flickers and fades

The hot kisses only singeing your skin

The one thing keeping it going pouring water on it

He thought water was what I needed

A thirst that needed to be quenched

He thought I was the trees, but I was the flame burning them

He the kryptonite to my being

Snuffing me out

Until there is nothing left but my aching soul

Nothing more than a heartbeat slowly dissipating

My ecstasy became my demise

For our love was like fire and water

The light in my eyes steamed away as we got closer

Evaporating with you into the skies

What ascended you

Descended me.

Sevanna Simonette

The Pursuit of Happiness and the Cure for Pain

Everybody is always looking for happiness. Endlessly searching as if they are on a quest to finally find Bigfoot. We buy a new flatscreen, a new iPhone every year as if the “changes” are worth it or even really needed, more makeup to hide ourselves to the point of not even being us anymore, a bigger house for a small family who doesn’t need it, and on and on.

We continue buying stuff all the time, hopping from relationship to relationship to escape being alone for one second with ourselves, looking to the bottom of bottle after bottle to find the cure for the pain—-the deliriousness that we are supposed to have at every waking moment but don’t. We largely have the media and guerrilla marketing to thank for this feeling of missing out on something. We’re being sold that happiness is in the unhealthy ownership of another human being in the disguise of a relationship or the collection of another piece of garbage that was probably made in China at the hands of slave labor anyway. If all this was meant to make us happy, then why are we all not sipping piña coladas out of coconuts in Hawaii with not a single sign of stress to be found?

The pursuit of having more is not sustainable. It is no more sustainable nor healthy than fossil fuels, but that is for another article. Every person I have met who only pursued(s) material gain was not happy. They were/are all miserable.

Happiness is not some elusive cryptid that has yet to be discovered. Happiness can be found in this moment as you are reading these words. It all starts in appreciating what you have right now. Not what you will one day have, but what you have right in this moment. I know it’s an annoying concept, but it’s true nonetheless. We all feel happiest when we are grateful for everything we have and for everything we have learned. It doesn’t have to be big. It can be gratitude for a flower on the path of your stroll through nature, or that bird that swoops into your yard every morning to sing. Anything can be a blessing if you appreciate it enough.

The ailments of many people essentially begins with ingratitude for what they have. When we are feeling upset we are rejecting something—-we don’t accept something that has occurred. Alternatively, we feel happiest when we are feeling gratitude for something—we are accepting something. So, the next time you feel upset, instead of thinking about how much you hate your life and everything about it, try just taking a moment to reflect upon what gets you out of bed instead. Think of the things, lessons, and people whose presence have made your life more worthwhile, or further yet, find a way to appreciate the lesson a negative occurrence might be trying to teach you. Find a way to win either way. Don’t let loss be an option when you could be a winner no matter what happens. A valuable lesson can be found anywhere, and it won’t be easy, but a miserable state of existence does not have to be permanent. Don’t wait until it’s too late. You won’t be able to do anything when you’re on your deathbed.

One must also recognize that one is not a failure for not being deliriously happy at all times. That is nothing but an illusion. The only permanence is impermanence, and we humans were not meant to feel only happiness. We have a wide spectrum of emotions that we are meant to feel. If we were only meant to feel happiness then that would be the only emotion available to us. All of our emotions are there to be felt at one point or another. The key is balance, and one must be careful not to identify with these emotions because they are what we have not what we are. That’s why it is important to say “I feel…” Rather than “I am…”. Emotions are nothing more than reactions to the world around us. They become a problem when they take control such as in the case of depression, anxiety, anger issues, et cetera—all things that I have struggled with. Emotions are there for survival and learning. We cannot know light without darkness and vice versa. They are a tool of life rather than our identification. Your I.D. reads your name rather than your ruling emotions.

There will likely come a time when (if you live your life according to your spirit and authenticity) you will experience satisfaction with your life, and that is ultimately what everyone dreams of to some degree. What most don’t consider is the fact that once you reach that point of satisfaction that is ultimately when your life ends. That is when your contribution and life’s work has been completed. There is nothing more for you to give (besides charity and volunteer work at this point). At this stage many people will feel happiness or melancholy for not having anything else to do or feeling as if they have not done enough, but here again lies the problem of ingratitude for what they have already accomplished. Don’t rush yourself to the end. Take the time to savor life’s pleasures and even the sorrows one bite at a time rather than in one sitting because once it’s done, it is done. The day we are happy is the day our journeys have ended. Satisfaction is the last line of the last page contained within the story of your life. For one must recognize that happiness generally doesn’t exist in the world of the creator/artistry of anything, and if they have created anything while high on the drug of happiness, it is likely not beautiful enough to move a person. Inspiration comes form pain, not fortune, and that is precisely why pain is needed. Everything has a use, so please do not berate yourself for not being delusionally happy all the time. Simply create and appreciate.

The System and the End Times

So many people feel like there is something off these days, but let’s be real. There has never been a time where anything has been “right”. Whether it be that the government is slowly eroding our rights and freedoms, the racist who feel oppressed because they are being condemned for their bigotry and don’t understand why, that people still go hungry even though tons of perfectly good food is being thrown away, that Daddy didn’t purchase an entitled son a Rolex, that human trafficking is still a problem, that people still have to fight for education and basic human rights, et cetera. No matter who you talk to everybody can at least agree that something is wrong (unless you’re an elite) even if they cannot agree on what exactly it is that is wrong.

A lot of the things that people focus on are nothing more than perfectly placed distractions to keep us occupied from what is really going on behind closed doors. It all starts with the way “The System” was built. Many people believe that the foundations that this current system was built on is now falling apart not realizing that it was built flawed in the first place. This system that all of the older generations fought for (and still do) was built to enslave the public while also making them believe that the public is free at the same time. There is nothing about this country nor any other place on this Earth that is a “free” place. We are all slaves in some way or form, and some more than others. We must become aware of the chains so that we may break them. We continue to elect the two party system and the silver-tongues who represent them hoping that if we just elect the right person that we will all be saved. Candidates and voting were given to the public to toss a bone to make us feel like we had a voice.

As has been mentioned before by whom I am unsure, there is a reason for the two ruling political factions to be called “the right and left wing”. While they may seem like completely different wings, they are each a wing of the same bird or plane or whichever analogy you prefer. The same plane that is heading for a nose dive straight to the ground with all of us on board. The supporters of each faction arguing with each other as if either of them are correct in their claims. Newsflash, both are wrong. Do not fall for politicians of either side as both of them are spinning a different lie. They all have an agenda. This is not the time to be spitting fire (and I’m not talking about a sweet mixtape) back and forth into each other’s faces.

They want us to be pitted against each other, and by “they” I am referring to the deep state or the ruling class: the people who pull the strings. The more divided we are, the more easily we are to be controlled because we are too focused on being right to notice what is actually going on. You can point the finger at the minority, the single moms on food stamps, the homeless man on the curb, or the person who didn’t vote all you please, but you’re not helping. Nothing gets done when you’re using your fingers to point rather than build. Build a better world, don’t bitch about who you think made it the way it is. If you’re blaming another innocent then you keep the blame from those who really possess it. All civilians are innocent bystanders to the tyranny of the top players in the game. Where we stand they fall. At this rate we are just leading ourselves to our own demise. Look at the world around you. None of this is okay. Every time we vote we are voting to keep the system as is. You can’t use an old system to create a new one. You must take down and remove the old to bring in the new.

There is no perfect person to vote in. Both sides bicker in the public eye, but behind closed doors they’re drinking tea and playing golf together as they laugh about how easy it was for them to swindle us all and get away with it. Instead, people want to blame the younger generations. Interestingly enough I find that the younger generations are the ones talking the most sense and actually trying to change the world while the others complain. Before you scream at others to “find their safe space” you might want to find your own. It is the young people who are bringing back the revolution that never should have died. Just fight with them. Your future is at stake too. While you’re accepting your slavery the young are working to free us all from it. They can’t do it alone.

The rich are not entitled to all of the world’s resources to exploit and monopolize for the highest bidders at hellacious prices. No one should have to sell their soul for a basic human right to all. Food, water, and shelter are not commodities to be sold while the majority go without. One should not have to slave away for the rest of their lives just to have a place to live or have an education. If you own a home, look at the deed. Even though you bought it the deed will say that you are a tenant of your property. They still own it either way. You don’t even own what you own. Even healthcare that is garbage and kills people if they even bother to help at all, and that’s even if you can afford it. Even education is corrupt. Remember, history is written by the victor. History isn’t the only thing skewed. Much of what is taught in any subject in school is false, but they won’t tell you that. They want us in the dark. An educated public is an untamable public. They want uninformed workers who will be okay with giving their all to a corporation for nothing; replaceable slaves. Work ethic is a fancy name for someone who knows how to be a good slave.

Humanity is meant for so much more than this. We all have a purpose here, and I promise you it isn’t to work in a factory for the rest of our lives. We are not meant to keep killing and hurting each other. Causing pain onto each other is so archaic. We can move beyond this. Don’t give in to the slave monetary system. Paper is not worth hurting others or ourselves over. More and more people are waking up to the reality of the world and the Universe day by day. More and more people are feeling anxious and depressed. Open your eyes to the vastness of the Infinite. Realize that there are many things so much bigger than us and our little world and systems of doing things. It’s time to evolve. We don’t need this system. It needs us, and as long as we continue to feed it, it will remain.

The world may seem so bleak and hopeless, but you are not alone in feeling this way. It does not have to be this way. I know it feels like the end is just around the corner, and it is, but not in the way that has been portrayed. We probably won’t die in a fiery explosion nor will aliens try to take over our planet, but the world as we know it must and will come to an end. The end may be near, but there is still time. We can still put a stop to the tyranny. Chaos will ensue to bring about the new. It seems like things are only getting worse, but this is only the beginning. Things are about to get interesting, but in the end the people will be triumphant. It will be replaced by a new world.

Do you really want the world to stay as it is? A better world that benefits all doesn’t have to be a fairytale; a myth. We can make it a reality. A world where famine, illness, and thirst does not exist. Where everyone is granted a place to live. Where there is no monetary system or power structure. We can self-regulate our own lives and take control. We can barter and trade goods and services. There is not nor ever was a need for a monetary system. Where crime and war don’t exist because no one will feel any sort of need for it. Where everyone has access to everything such as knowledge or anything being hidden by the elites; full and complete transparency. Where there is no oppression, hate, nor prejudice. Where everyone has the freedom to pursue anything they love such as art or woodworking or anything that makes the heart sing rather than selling their souls to build up someone else’s empire. We can have a world full of love and peace, but not if we continue to spread hate amongst ourselves and let the elites get away with their crimes against humanity and the world.

We can build this new world that seems only possible in fiction by overthrowing the government, the shadow government, and all who are in any position of power. Protesting not by marches but with our money as that is what they use to control us. We can use it to control them right back. Take your money from the banks and corporations. That is the best way. If we bleed them of our resources then they will die. We can reject the religious indoctrination that promotes hate, control, and division. Choose to love one another rather than hate. You may enjoy the power of hate, but love feels better. Even if you disagree, love ultimately feels better. Hate fuels their power and makes us easier to control, but when we live in peace and harmony there will be no way for them to fight us. We could further choose a day or even longer than that to not spend a dime of our money nor go anywhere so to stop the world. Not even to work. The whole world would stop. Only then will they know their time is up. Reject fossil fuels. Open your arms to renewable and free energy. Some will be worried that rejecting fossil fuels will mean a loss in jobs, but job creation won’t matter when your children don’t have a future because you chose to poison the land and water just to have an unsustainable job in the moment. Don’t let the fuel companies fool you into thinking you need them when in reality they need us far more than we will ever need them. Protesting in this manner may collapse the economy and foundations of our world, but this needs to happen. We cannot change it if we don’t break it first. It is not too late (yet) to make the change, but we don’t have much time.

Above all things the most important thing we all need to remember if we want to change the world for the better is to do unto others as we wish to have done unto ourselves, and to find out how we can be more of service to others rather than finding out how the world can be of service to only ourselves. We can build a world that serves us, but we must do our part to serve the world first. It does not matter what your talents are. What matters is how you use them to serve the highest good. Whether you are a singer giving inspiration or a builder engineering the new world, we all have something to offer. We must take our lives into our own hands now rather than expecting someone else to do the work for us. Stop looking for someone to blindly follow and lead yourself. There is no perfect candidate nor guru who can fix it all for us. We are all human. We are all flawed. No one is going to come save us. Not Hillary. Not Trump. Not Jesus. Not your friend’s dad. Nobody but the collective. Don’t let them distract you with trivial garbage. We are all one.  We are all in this together. We won’t win if we don’t act like and work together as the team we are. We’re all on the same team. Yes, every single one of us. Hope is the drive that keeps us alive, my friends. It’s time to be our own saviors.

The Journey So Far

Greetings, fellow internet surfers who just so happened to stumble upon this post. You have landed on The Sevan Seas: my personal blog. I am known as Sevanna, which is why “Sevan” is in the title rather than “Seven.” Clever, right? You may call me Vanna as that is what most people refer to me as.

Anyway, I am an 18-year-old female who decided to create a blog. I did that for the purpose of pursuing my interests in written communication (as I’m not the most proficient in spoken communication), and because I felt like I would enjoy it, of course. It seems like a great start to dabble in writing as I am young and just starting out.

The types of subjects that I am interested in including in this blog such as elements of spirituality and my various perspectives and opinions on that, wisdom, inspiration, self development, truth-seeking, theories of all kinds such as on life and the workings of the Universe, love, the possible occasional journal-like entry, poetry, stories that may be fiction or non, or any subject that happens to ignite my interest that forces me to think. I would like to think of this blog as a “life and times” blog just to keep those who need a label for things happy.

Keep in mind that I am no guru of any kind, and I will not spin an illusion that I am. I am no expert or practitioner of anything but my own life. I merely wish to share my perspectives and thoughts on life as I continue to move through it each and every day that I live as it is possible that a perspective of mine may resonate with and may even help another. I would love if my journey assisted someone else’s. I am still but a child in the grand scheme of the Universe, but wisdom comes in all forms in all ages. I don’t have all the answers, but my goal is for this blog to be my creation that will grow and metamorphosize along with me and my journey. One could say that this is an extension of myself; an expression of my higher form and creativity as I grow into and become my true self. Through self discovery in my existence this becomes an object and manifestation of my hunger for knowledge and satiation in acquiring it from sources that would not be considered “normal”, expected, nor even accepted by the mainstream.

I hope that you, the reader, may find a gem here in the mining through the content here on my blog. I look forward to embarking on our journey together if you so choose to stick around! We are all in this together. Thank you for stopping by, and if you are interested in what’s to come then I hope that you might stay tuned! 🙂

May Your Journey be Fruitful,